I can honestly say that graduating was a blessing and a curse. I have never been so unhappy and depressed in my life. I almost wished that I did not graduate because I honestly feel that me graduating stained and tarnished certain relationships. For example, my mother and I since I have moved back home we are constantly fighting and like I don't argue anymore because she is my mother and I have to respect her, but on the inside I am so frustrated and upset.
I have also had this feeling of being alone so much because I feel like most people don't understand what I am going through. Most of my good friends stayed in Boston and though they may be unemployed at least they have each other. I am in this state where all I have is my mom and two friends physically near and it's just not the same. I honestly don't know what to do about anything anymore. I have been applying to jobs daily and still no response except for a modeling agency but I have to wait to see if they want to sign me. My relationship is also very tough for a number of reasons that I am not going to put on this but it just got a lot tougher because of the distance and it hurts so much. I have never been this unhappy in my life...
-SF
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