Friends...

When I was growing up my mom told me be careful who you call friend because friends come and go but your true friends will stand the test of time. I kno what that means now....

...It's so crazy how people with time can change. When I left high school, I lost some friends. My good friends we're not as close as we were but we still are friends and always will be. Now I graduated college and someone who I considered one of my good good friends has changed alot. I don't know what is wrong. I know that I am alot to deal with and a bitch at times but one thing I know is that I am a good friend. I have been there for this person in so many ways and vice versa. They have been there for me as well, but now things have changed. When I was in Boston, we had a big fight right before I left but then I thought everything was cool the person wanted to see me but I couldn't see them because I had to go to sleep early. When I got home I tried to contact this person and they just ignored my calls and texts and now this person I feel I have lost as a friend. I have to say it hurt alot because we have been through alot but I guess sometimes friendships fade. I called my best friend earlier to vent and I started crying just because I would never expect this from this person but IDK, they just don't seem to care so I guess I shouldnt. I will always hold on to the good times and I will always love this person but IDK. Life is good otherwise and I can't complain...

- SF

Things Are Looking Up...

Ok, so this past week has been crazy for me. Monday, I was in Boston. Tuesday, I drove back to Charlotte. Wednesday, I slept all day. Thursday, I had an interview with an insurance company and got hired.(That was some bullshit) Friday, I applied to many different jobs and an incredible internship opportunity for a major Performing Arts Center in Charlotte, I went out with my mom to eat and had some drinks and randomly went out with my friend Rufus. Today being Saturday, I attended a special open call at a Talent Agency here in Charlotte called Carolina Talent. But today was a good day. I tried out, I had to walk for them and then read a commercial and they loved me!!! :-) They want to represent me. I can honestly say that things are beginning to look up. Right now what would be ideal for me is to have a part-time job, get and do my internship and doing commercials, TV and film for Carolina Talent. That is what I want. I feel this would be great for me to start meeting people and having social interactions and many different experiences but now I am getting excited about the possibilities of my new life here in Charlotte. I hope everything begins to just start soon cuz I am ready. Yes, I know I am rambling but I just wanted to keep y'all up to date with my life right now so yea. The biggest thing right now for me is just to stay strong and positive. I miss my friends and my life in Boston and I need to make a trip up there soon but I am excited to see what this new place has to offer. Ok that is all for now people.
Until next time, SF



PS - Random tidbit: Me and my friend Rufus were talking about living together when he graduates so I am excited that means I need to get it together so that I can move out next year sometime...but yea my life just needs to come together...Yipeee :-) haha

Random quote...

Before you read play this just for some random listening:

"The truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for."
— Bob Marley

I have been doing alot of thinking lately. I have been crying and all of that. Yea, I guess you could say right now I am emo haha, but I stumbled upon this quote and it just really made me think. I actually feel like its true because if you think about it there is noone that we love and care about who hasn't hurt us. I love my mom to death but she has hurt me and vice versa. I know that I have hurt her as well. I have great friends and stuff but we have had our moments where we have hurt one another but to me they are worth it because we get through the suffering but it is kind of crazy that people will forever hurt you, ehhh I guess Such is Life...




Just a random quote and a random thought...Tell me what y'all think

- SF

Music Update

Ok you see this chica right here...I fucking love her and if you don't know about her you need to know who she is. I tell all my friends that I look at her as the Female "Wayne." Her flow is crazy. She is the "Black, Chinese and Butter Pecan," as she says on one of her records...This is Nicki Minaj. She is currently independent and has tons of offers for deals but she's amazing. I really like her latest mixtape "Beam Me Up Scotty." She is just ill...

This is my favorite song from her called Itty Bitty Piggy:



And just so you can know her better, check a part of this quick interview she has about how a dude can get at her...I love her. She's a bad bitch. I hope y'all enjoy <3 SF

FML

Yes, you read the title right, this post is titled FML(Fuck My Life) for those who don't know what it means...

...First let me say that I know that my life is not as bad as others and I know that I am blessed and fortunate to have a good mother, good friends and so forth, but I am back home in Charlotte. My mom told me she couldn't and wouldn't support me anymore unless I came home and so I came home because honestly what can I do. I had my car up there and I needed money for gas. Now I am back and I just miss my friends alot and I miss my college life somewhat or maybe not even the life but just not having to worry about anything. I still haven't found a job and it's so frustrating. I grew up knowing that I had to go to college to secure my future and now it seems especially with the economy that college doesn't even mean shit nemore. Now I am in debt and I have a degree but no job and no money. I just sit in my house and apply to jobs and I have only two friends here so I am very alone all the time which is so not like me but I guess I should not complain because things could be alot worse...
...Sorry I just needed to vent, SF

Slackin....

Ok...so like the title says and I know I say this alot but I have been slackin. I kno, I kno and it's because my life became so boring that I had nothing interesting to say nemore and I still feel like I'm boring but life has gotten a bit more interesting these days...hehe


...As you guys know, I returned back to Charlotte, NC after graduation and I had been actively applying and looking for jobs and I was getting nothing. I came to Boston on July 5 me and my bestie Cass drove up cuz my mom thought maybe I could come here and have better opportunities...So NOT THE CASE but it's cool. I have been having alot of fun. Being with my best friend Cassie and my nigga Hasani and seeing some old friends has been great but being here just made me realize how much I have gotten used to my life post-grad. I really dont have time for stupid childish games, drama, gossip and all the other BS that comes when you are at BC. I had an interview for a job and it was good but I did not get the job. I was in Forever 21 yesterday and this girl who worked as a cashier approached me and said I should apply. I did and I am going to wait to see if I hear from them and if not o well. At this point, I have no problem going home. I miss my mom alot, but I know I will be sad cuz Im going to miss my friends who are like my second family especially Cass who is the best friend you could ever ask for. But yea other than that I just realized that I've outgrown alot of the shit at BC and I want this new chapter in my life to really get going haha....
...One thing that I want to say before ending this post is I am the happiest I have ever been in my life. I have a degree and I am chillin. I have good friends and some good family and I know that I am blessed. People don't ever lose yourself it can be the hardest thing to come out of and I found myself again and I am happy, happy, HAPPY!!!!! :-) Life is better and alot easier just being you. I love my life and everyone should cherish what the world has to offer...Nuthing but opportunity.

Until next time, SF